During the lifetime I can feel better all my experiences are not exactly serious. Job and family, professional grouth - all of these are smth like childish actions. But there are some moments I feel like a part of smth wiser and much... more loveable than me. These are momens of happiness. Moments of clear vision of how things should be done. Do you have such kind of experience? And please don't take this like a hitchhiker's speech.