Archive for August, 2009

29 aug

The Son I Gave Up for Adoption

I am a 40 year old mother to 3 children. My 12 year old son is mine by birth and I also have a stepdaughter and stepson. When I was 17 years old I gave up my son for adoption. It was honestly the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I have spent the last 21 years wondering how he is doing, if he ever thinks of me, if he hates me for what I did,etc. All the emotions I assume anyone in my position goes through. (I’d like to add that I myself am also an adopted child so I know what it’s like from both ends of the spectum.)
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Posted by First 30 Days on August 29th, 2009 in Personal Stories | 1 comment

29 aug

The Love of My Life…Just a Muse?

My story is unique simply because I am now looking at it from an altered state of mind. A place of peace that is very sacred to me. I am 22 years old and have had my ups and downs, but I have always known I have this awesome ability to love and love completely. I started late in the date scene due to religious practices and really didn’t get comfortable around men until college, which is not rare, but was still a hindrance to me. I dated two men steadily before I found Matt. A body builder…and my first. I feel for him like a brick. He was funny and out-going not to mention handsome. We dated for several months before committing to a relationship. When I started dating Matt, I was in the throws of an eating disorder. Back then it was hard just feeling human. I couldn’t do what everyone else seemed to be doing…enjoying life. But Matt was something solid and steady for me. I had never had that in my life at least not at the time. When I started expressing my love for him, that’s when I finally stopped being afraid. For so long I didn’t want to trust myself let alone anyone close to me. He allowed me freedom and peace of mind. I was so excited that I gave everything I could into the relationship. Call me a fool, but it gradually feel apart due to my ability. I knew this would happen you see because I wasn’t being my true self when i started dating him. It was only after we separated that I realized I had become Lily again. And now without a doubt I can say I love myself. I love my body. I love my health. Matt may not have been the one for me, but he gave me back the ability to love and for that I will always love him.

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Posted by First 30 Days on August 29th, 2009 in Personal Stories | No comments

28 aug

Kitty Has Cancer

I just found out 2 weeks ago that my precious kitty Charlie has cancer and that he may only have a few days to live. I am devastated. He is only 9 years old and it is just tearing my heart out to see him losing so much weight. He is my best friend and has helped me through my divorce and the death of my father.

Now that I know I’m losing him too I can barely even look at anyone without crying. I don’t know what I’m going to do without him – he is my whole world.

Please pray for Charlie – I don’t want him to suffer or to be in any pain. I feel so helpless and just don’t know what to do.

Shared by blue2001bug.

Posted by First 30 Days on August 28th, 2009 in Personal Stories | 3 comments

28 aug

Starting Again at 54

I am also 54 and going through a divorce. I did not want this to happen but here I am. I believe that this is a new beginning.My children and friends have been very supportive. I also make sure to make time for myself and help others. I hope that his helps.

Shared by amllucy.

Posted by First 30 Days on August 28th, 2009 in Personal Stories | 1 comment

27 aug

Through the Storm

Over the past 60 days I have cried more than I have ever cried in my 31 years on this Earth. There were 7 straight days where different things happened and I couldn’t explain why it was happening but was overwhelmed. I cried on the phone with friends, cried in front of friends, and cried in front of my daughters.

I have been through my share of storms in my life but nothing like this. Now I know why, I had to go through all of that to get back to where I needed and in my heart wanted to be; with God. The biggest issue I had to face was forgiving myself for everything I had done to people in the past and most of all what I had done to myself.

I have signs on a daily basis that everything is going to work itself out if I simply believe what God say he would do and be patient. Patience has never been my strong point, but I am learning to be patient. Now when I see signs to let me know he is still working in that area all I can do is smile.

All of the helpful words I use to have for everybody else I had to finally use on myself. I have spent so much of my time worrying about others that when I actually sat down to discuss myself with myself I found myself speechless. I finally know my true purpose is to help others and I will know what type of help they need by simply doing what I always have done ” Listening.” The only difference now I help myself as well.

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Posted by First 30 Days on August 27th, 2009 in Personal Stories | 2 comments

25 aug

2012- A Time of Change?

There’s been quite a bit of talk about 2012 and whether some dramatic change is going to face the world, the planet, each of us individually. I wanted to share a few thoughts about what I know, what I’ve read and what I personally choose to believe about this subject. If you have no idea what I’m talking about, keep reading!
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Posted by Ariane de Bonvoisin on August 25th, 2009 in Ariane, Global/Social Change | 1 comment

25 aug

Promoting Equitable Development

I listened today to your interview with James Wolfensohn and felt for the first time in a long while some hope, optimism and creative energy that can be tapped to support equitable development.
Your site presents tools of change that can usefully support for my development, and for me personally. Moving beyond the mantras of change to tools that can be applied is critical in the region I live where single parent households and vulnerable population groups need to be energized to act on a personal level first to make change and development really happen.

Thanks for your website which shares this vision, poses positive questions and facilitates answers that can create a shift in outlook and action. I hope I can find your book in local bookstores. Thanks again.

Shared by pauann.

Posted by First 30 Days on August 25th, 2009 in Personal Stories | No comments

23 aug

Separation at 54

My wife is leaving me after 29 years of marriage and I’m fearful of the future, how we will split our house and how work colleagues will react to my situation when I let them know. At the same time my family of origin have been incredibly supportive and non-judgmental.
What have others learned from this type situation?
How do assets get split that is fair to all?

Shared by JohnKe.

Posted by First 30 Days on August 23rd, 2009 in Personal Stories | No comments

22 aug

My Liver Malfunction

I had an Anti-Immune Disorder come back all-of-a-sudden in March 2007. Hadn’t had any problems w/ my Immune System for 16.5 years so even my Private Doctor couldn’t figure out why.
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Posted by First 30 Days on August 22nd, 2009 in Personal Stories | No comments

20 aug

Creating New Dreams

I am a widow of 5 years with 2 sons, one a college freshman and one a high school junior. I left a successful senior legal and operations management career 10 years ago to care for my children and ended up as my husband’s caregiver as he succumbed to cancer. I am a full time volunteer at my church and my son’s school but feel anxious about the future. In less than 2 years I will be “alone” and want this year to seriously begin redrafting my future dreams. What do I want to do — how do I rebrand myself and find a fulfilling job? I am very blessed with my family and friends but uncertain about how to begin the job search all over again. I love Arianne’s optimism and know that God has a plan….but how do I figure it out? It sometimes seems overwhelming. Glad to get this out as I know there are many of us struggling with similar issues. Thanks for listening!

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Posted by First 30 Days on August 20th, 2009 in Personal Stories | No comments