Hopeful

I know from personal experience that it does take two people to make it work. He might be beating himself up, but chances are, they both probably contributed to it in way or another. Ultimately, you can't make someone love you.

I have been actively looking into all that myself. I have had multiple surgeries for crohns disease and taken years and years of medication but did not have the healthiest of diets and probably not as active as I should be. It has been my experience that some doctors are quick to prescribe a medication but I'd rather do something to heal my body than have to pop a bunch of pills, whatever that lifestyle change is and know where I went wrong to begin with.

Oh, for your pain. I was reading on another post that people have tried acupuncture for pain and it worked great. That may be an option for you if you are willing to try it.

I have been going through some major changes myself, especially recently, and I understand how difficult it is. It's alot but I see positives and try to think optimistically. First off, you are no longer in an abusive relationship! That is a good thing. You are free to live your life without that fear and heartache. As for the pain, I've suffered on and off with chrones disease since I was a small child (I am now 35 yrs. old) so I understand about the physical pain. Do what the doctor tells you and try to take care of yourself the best you can, also, maybe a chiropractor can help with your back. Maybe if a chiropractor can help you, you will be able to stand to do hair again if that is what you want, or you can choose to do something else. As far as the house goes, I'm sorry to hear that. I have moved many times and rented, so the only house I grew attached to was my home growing up and I can tell you from personal experience, home is where the heart is. So whatever place you move to, you can make it a home. Goodluck and best wishes to you. Pray, try to be hopeful, and think positive. Good luck to you!!!!

Yes. I haven't seen an ugly one yet.

I used to sing to mine (in the shower of course). I talked to mine and playfully poked at them (before I knew I had twins in there) when they would kick. I didn't read to them, but that sounds excellent too. I'm sure the sound of your voice will wind up being soothing to the baby(ies).

You are all heart Lonewolf.