GiniMaddocks

I recommend 2 books: Eckhart Tolle's, Awaekning to Your LIfe's Purpose and don Miguel Ruiz', The 4 Agreements. This is your opportunity to awaken to THE WONDERFUL WORLD OF YOUR SELF.

When you take a step away and observe yourself going through all of this, you may come to be-friend yourself and like who you are, and see how different your decisions are when they are completely yours.

I didn't even know how I felt about certain issues until I was alone with myself. I'd always been affected by my mate and how "he" saw things, without knowing how much was not my own. Only when I had time to my self and had to voice my own opinions, did i realize how different they were from his.

I love living MY WAY now. I wish the same for you. Embrace the journey and then see how you feel about him... Your time with your grandchildren will be so precious. Maybe they need you undiluted and whole.

best wishes.

I am using Leopard. I hadn't had my Mac very long before I upgraded so I cannot really tell much difference but it makes me feel "oh-so-grown-up!" and savvy. Ha!

My daughter, Tana Maddocks is my favorite grad. When she first began college, she didn't have direction and wondered why she was wasting her parents' money being there. She became depressed and couldn't get out of bed to drag herself to class and eventually she dropped out.
Later that year, she became pregnant and more changed than just her body! Tana gave up cigarettes that moment. She agonized over how she would make ends meet and decided that working at a convenient store was not the answer. She put herself back into college, worked evenings and weekends, made a closer relationship with her boyfriend, now fiance`, and is graduating with a degree in Speech Therapy and Audiology. Congratulations, Tana, you've passed the threshold into being a Wonderful Contributing Human Being! I'm so proud of you... 'Jo Mama