Cassandra

You are on the right path the and most important is awareness you are aware there is a problem only then can you accept that your alcohol consumption is a problem. And that there is a strong possibility that you have the disease of addiction charectorized by obsession and compulsion to use whatever alters your mood and takes you out side of yourself. I know this because I was there almost 15 years ago I too thought it was hopeless and at the time I was lonley angry and tired of my life and began committing a slow suicide. It was not until i surrendered and accepted that I was powerless over my addiction to alcohol and sought professional help did I begin the process of recovery. I am here if you need a shoulder and if an alcoholic like me can loose the desire to drink for 15 years so can you.