There was a lot of good times and some not so good times, infidelity on both parts as well.I was able to forgive him and move on but he decided to end the relationship because he could not forgive me and move on.I am okay with that just trying to cope from day to day and the kids are very sad because they miss their dad. He still comes by everyday and take them to school and have outings with them on the weekend and some evenings he stops by to do homework.Thank God he is still involve with them and he is still affectionate with me, matter of fact we are still sleeping together.That is what i need to work on , i am trying to pull myself away from him emotionally.I just don't want that to be what holds us together because we had a great sex life for the entire 17 years and we both agree on that, i guess that is why it is so hard to pull away.