If you lose your paycheck, just inform your employer and they will quickly take care of it. At least you FOUND a place that carried your husband's medicine. You had a rough day, so what? You don't really need all that much "spirituality" to get through a mildly bad day. I was reading some of the replies before I got to read your letter and I was thinking this person must have had a series of insurmountable events! Then I read the letter! Was that the first time you had a bad day? I don't get it.

Dear, dear Sniffers,
It is so hard when you are trying your very best, and things still keep going awry! Not only are you the breadwinner but, from the sound of it, you are the primary caregiver for your husband! And chief cook, and laundress, and housekeeper and . . . was anything left out?? WOW!! What an overload!
While in the midst of this whirlwind called life, do remember to take some deep breaths. I know, it sounds insignificant, but when one rides the whirlwind, you have got to pause momentarily to take care of yourself so that you can do all the things that you need to do.
Are there any county or state programs in Fla. that might be able to give you some help? What about the churches? Do you have family nearby who can do small things to take some of the load off your shoulders?
Do take care of you -- so you have the reserves to see you through each day. And that means eat a healthful diet, get 7 - 8 hours sleep, drink sufficient water, try to get some exercise a couple times a week. I know, it just seems like crowding more "stuff" into an already overcrowded schedule, but if you don't take care of YOU, you won't be able to take care of all that needs to be taken care of.
Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers,
and remember you are not alone!
Love and gentle thoughts.
Lillie

I know it is so, so tough, and none of us can understand how you are feeling except for you, but try so hard to have faith.

Dr. Martin Luther King once said, "Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase. Just take the first step."

It feels insurmountable now, so don't try to figure everything out. Just take the first step.

It's really great that you have faith.I found that when I used to pray "God please. . . ." things just didn't seem to mesh. I have found the power of positive thinking through my faith. It sometimes takes a while, but I always seem to find a way through, and in a peaceful way. This is the basic principle in the book "The Secret" (even though that is not what I practice). Remember that you may be worse off than you once were, but you will be better off than you are now soon.

You are lucky, in this difficult point in your life, that you have faith in God. Just think if you did not. I believe the answers are always there for us and God is waiting on us to just be still and listen. Hard to do when you keep getting thrown curveballs and get down, tired and tired of things happening. Believe in the power of this moment. Concentrate on this moment and what is in your hands and what is not. You will get through this and get to the next moment. Let go and listen. I wish you peace in your heart.

I have found in my spiritual walk with God that the harder "I" try, the more the dark spiritual realm presses in around me. I have been busy caretaking other people and not taking good care of myself and God let everything around me fall apart, including my ending up in ICU in the hospital with pneumonia and the other people around me sick. I have been dealing with an eating disorder for many months now and have gotten myself so run down physically from it that I was no good to anyone. When I got out of the hospital, I was alone and weak and turned to God and admitted to Him that I "knew" His will was for me to take better care of myself physically, eat more and better, stop smoking, (which I had been half-heartedly trying to do) and that this was the consequence of my not listening to Him and obeying. He has convicted, not condemned me, of my wrong attitudes and actions and that I cannot do it by myself, but need to turn my life and will over to Him and follow His leading and "Let" Him heal me from the inside out. I am taking it one day at a time and looking always to Him for "the next right thing" to do. I know that God has let these consequences happen to me to get my attention and I feel good that finally I am making the right choices. I truly do believe He can bring "good out of bad" if we will let Him. God bless you and keep you and turn to Him and let Him do the work in you that He wants to do. I have to constantly remind myself that God IS in control and all is well.

With love in Christ,
Always, in all ways, to God the honor and glory!

I can certainly identify with this. I recently got fired from my second job, not by the person who I worked for, but some else who worked for her. The person who hired me didn't want to be bothered and anyway, was flying out to India the next day. I was sitting in a meeting at my first job, and the principal was jabbering about bringing joy to our students. I looked at the clock. It was 3:00. I had to get to the utilities company by 3:30 and try to convince them not to turn off my utilities. I saw a huge flash, and had a instant migraine. I don't know what happened next, but I heard later that I stood up, threw the agenda and hand outs on the floor, screamed something about the utility company, and ran out. I had, again, a BPD episode. What is BPD? Borderline Personality Disorder. Huh? You might know it best as Multiple Personalities. It's taken 2 weeks, with lots of support from my therapist and doctors, for me to be in charge again. What does this have to do with your question? Know that, for the time the bad things seem to happen, that they are only a moment in time. Accept it, and let it pass. God takes care of the birds in the air and the lilies in the field. He will take care of you.