so many feeling the crunch...to think you helped so many, why wouldn't you hope for "what goes around comes around..." (may be a lesson in that?) maybe so...but not in the way you would like? the lesson may be answered in hindsight.
"why me" is something futile... this question can be the door to the "self pity" pool to no where...we do not ask (or at least so much) "why me" when things are going great. sometimes the greatest opportunity for growth and learning is when things are bleak...if there is an answer to why me...would it help?
I wish you brighter days...the well-meaning "chin up" help tips ... must be taken with a mind set of "hear what they mean and not what they say" ...
I hope for something to make you smile every day...no matter how small it is... knowing that no matter how bad it is, you are not alone.